Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Of Following Dreams

*Warning: negative post ahead.

One must not take one's passions too seriously, or set out in pursuit of them.
Trust me on this. It will be much easier if you just take my word.
No? Then read on.


It is one thing to say, Follow your Dreams. It is yet another to shed the normalcy and security of daily life, and set out on the unfamiliar road, clutching a sheaf of hopes. The road less travelled, some say, to inject a sense of romance into it. That's brave of you, they say, to make you feel proud of your actions.

It is not easy, for sure, but to assume that the road is less crowded is attempting to deceive oneself.

It is not easy to look at people one has known all one's life and see them as characters. Observe their traits. Their colours. Their smells. Their accents.
It is not normal to manipulate situations, throw baits and wait for the bite.
Everything becomes a tool in a laboratory. Everyone becomes a lab rat.
Some call that art, the unapologetic term for irresponsible behaviour.

Worst of all, it is not easy to ask oneself every day, Was this the road I was meant to take? Or, am I making a mistake and wasting years of my life? Am I going to die over a pile of regrets??

Until a goal is reached, one never knows. In some cases, not even when a goal is reached.
What is the goal, after all, if not the journey itself?

What purpose does it serve anyway?
A sense of achievement that lasts a week? Nothing is satisfying or gratifying after ten days, is it?

The journey continues, regardless of the number of stations that pass, the milestones you cross. What does a mountaineer do after conquering Everest? There is no End, is there? There is no destination, no place that signifies the Ultimate Goal. Each goal gives way to the immediate next.

Isn't it easier to give up, turn back and swat those pestering dreams away while you can?
Isn't it even easier to never start, to pretend those dreams never existed?

What's a few more regrets anyway, in the end? There will probably be less regrets, for there is nothing more selfish than chasing one's own dreams.

Mark my words...

5 comments:

  1. Makalae... You are the most positive influence that I have had in my life, your presence, your easiness in embracing light moments, your smile for that matter which easens anything and everything...
    This line of thought is logical for anyone as we need to have those moments of uncertainity to clear the haze, to clear the reasoning, to make the thought clearer, to make it meaningful...you are special, you have done something so beautiful, this has to come so that when you achieve what you truly deserve, the excitment gets multifold.
    You are just awesome K~

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    1. Chettayi, Thanks for being there to share my good moments, & encouraging, motivating and prodding me on in my bad ones...
      :)

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  2. Hah Jeena, Insightful post into your thoughts on something intensely personal. I often look in wonder at people who are meticulous planners when it comes to their financial, business or even literary goals and actually work at it ruthlessly, sometimes cutting off the happiness of their own members to make it happen for themselves. Having made a total fool of myself by not doing the same, I have never seen it in the light that you have. And suddenly, you have made me feel very positive about something that I had always seen as a negative!

    Good post, Jeena! Keep inspiring us.

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